Recently I have been trying to take a step back and re-evaluate the plan God has in store for me. Ever since I lost my grandfather I have been faced with many hurdles that has changed my perspective of many things. Sometimes we get too comfortable and once our world is shaken or even broken by a catastrophic event in your life it can be nearly impossible to pick up all the pieces. I lost myself in grief and ever since then my life has been tumbling into a spiral vortex until today. Today I realized why my Grandfather sang “Blessed Assurance” and the true meaning of this hymn. My life is not my own, I forgot the meaning of being a servant unto the Lord. I have been selfish and have pushed God away because I was hurt, in pain, and yes even angry. I didn’t know how to cope and I built up a resistance while trying to fix myself. Today I realized as I listened to that song on Pandora that I am wrong and that there is no way for me to fix myself but to lean on the Lord and His Grace. God is with you no matter how bad the storm is in your life! All you have to do is reach out to Him.