Dedication to my Grandfather

My brother Michael sent me a beautiful video that was put together by him of our Grandaddy. He passed away back in September of 2015, that is when I really cut back on my writing also.

This video shows just a fragment of the service he did for the Lord. Giving Bibles to churches and all over Bulgaria. Risking his life while working for the Lord so others could know about Jesus. We need to have that dedication, that motivation to drop everything and put Him first!

Thank you again Michael for the beautiful video!

Broken Country

My heart breaks for all those lives that lost so much due to the horrendous flooding in Louisiana and Mississippi.  Praying for all of you!  This event has really caused my heart to ache just by hearing of this terrible catastrophe.  I was also saddened to know our own President is taking a vacation while many suffer because of the flooding.

America needs to step up and become the nation she used to be!  We need compassion, leadership, and God back in our country.  She is a dying country without God!  It saddens me so to watch America to deteriorate before my eyes.  We have forgotten what it means to be an American!  We should be proud and unashamed!  We should stand up and make a stand on our values and morals!  

We have lost the foundation to which our forefathers founded this land upon.  Justice and the Law have become Luke warm to most.  I see so much injustice and unlawful acts daily that most don’t react to but if someone helps out to do some good they are bashed for it.  It just makes me so sad! 😔

August 12th 2016

Today I have achieved so much!  It makes me so happy that I was able to be more productive.  Due to all the stress my motivation has been terrible but now that it has been lifted off my shoulders I feel so much more alive.  Stress is aterrible villain that sneaks up on you and consumes you till you have nothing left. Managing stress has never been my strong suite to say the least but I feel like I am growing.  Through many prayers and patience God got me through the tough patches and in result made me stronger in my faith.  If we don’t go through the tough stuff we will never grow and learn.  Today I am spending some much time with my kiddos and enjoying the little moments.  That’s what life is all about. 

God You are My Rock

This year has been a challenging one, almost too complicated to understand.  To be honest as I have faced the trials that this year has brought me I have learned that without God there is no foundation.  God has been my rock and has kept me a float as I was going through all the crazy chaos.  Now that I look upon the events that have gone on I now have peace of the end result.  No matter what you are facing always remember God is there to guide and encourage you along the way.

Walking by Faith

Walking by faith has been super hard for me lately.  I want to fix the problems my self, I think with most that holds true for most.  As silly as it sounds I feel like the bumps and trials I have face this Summer and year have made me stronger.  I now understand the reasoning of walking by Faith.
There is beauty behind it, just as children depend on their parents and put their full trust in them we should do the same with God.  He is always there and has a plan for each and every person.  Waiting for the Lord can be a very difficult task for the simplistic mind of people.  We tend to jump the gun and try to manage everything ourselves.

I stressed over things I had no control over this summer which made me partially miserable. The stress could have easily been avoided if I would have trusted the Lord instead of trying to take matters in my own hands.  Trust the Lord, He knows what He is doing! 😊

God is so Great!


Patience is a hard trait to follow through on, especially when you are eager!  Recently I have been struggling with the ability to be patient.  As my health declines and the grief from my beloved grandfather takes a toll on me my ability to be patient has been tested.  

I am trying to rebuild myself one piece at a time.  Sometimes that’s all you can do!  As God tries us we tend to shut down and sulk.  But God is in control no matter what circumstance you may be facing!  Thank goodness!! God is my rock and foundation and without him I would fall to pieces!!!  God is so Great!!!!! 😊

Moving Forward!

 

hope

Recently I have been trying to take a step back and re-evaluate the plan God has in store for me.  Ever since I lost my grandfather I have been faced with many hurdles that has changed my perspective of many things.  Sometimes we get too comfortable and once our world is shaken or even broken by a catastrophic event in your life it can be nearly impossible to pick up all the pieces.  I lost myself in grief and ever since then my life has been tumbling into a spiral vortex until today.  Today I realized why my Grandfather sang  “Blessed Assurance” and the true meaning of this hymn.  My life is not my own, I forgot the meaning of being a servant unto the Lord.  I have been selfish and have pushed God away because I was hurt, in pain, and yes even angry.  I didn’t know how to cope and I built up a resistance while trying to fix myself.  Today I realized as I listened to that song on Pandora that I am wrong and that there is no way for me to fix myself but to lean on the Lord and His Grace.  God is with you no matter how bad the storm is in your life!   All you have to do is reach out to Him.

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